Today, Not Yesterday
Who AM !? Who am I, today. Not, Who Was I? Not, Who am I Going to Be? Who am I? The longer you actively pursue the Lord, the easier it is to answer today's question. I had an opportunity recently to revisit who I was, and to realize just who I am, and that helped me to see even more who I am going to be. Are you still with me? I was invited to a party a few weeks ago. It was not the kind of party I have been to in a long time, but the guest of honor was a very dear friend of mine, and there was no way I was going to miss it. I had spent time in prayer, and went to the party without worries. Now, more than ever, I have way to many reasons not to take a drink and go down the old path that was my life. So, I wasn't concerned about actually taking a drink. However, I was concerned about wishing I could take a drink. When I was first born again, I would go to the bar with my co-workers at the end of each month. It was a sales team tradition. When I went, my odds were 50/50. Half the time, I would sit for a while and chat and leave early, half the time I wouldn't. All it took was one drink. As soon as I had one the devil would slither up beside me. He would say "how's your drink Jen? tastes good doesn't it? this is a lot easier than trying to explain to everyone why your not drinking isn't it? oh wait, you did start out the night saying you weren't drinking didn't you? ooops. now they really know you don't know what you are talking about. who are you kidding anyway? born again. yeah right. you think you can just say "I'm sorry, please forgive me" and it's done? what about blah-blah-blah. you think that can be forgiven? nice try. that's right Jen, go ahead, get another drink. this is where you belong". Any of that sound familiar? So, I went to this party. I stayed for a couple hours, and I went home. On the way out, there were 2 sales people from my old job and we had a brief interaction. It was actually a huge shock to see them there. They didn't remember who I was. It kind of annoyed me. It hit me later on....they didn't remember me because I am not the same! I look different, I carry myself different, I speak different. I guarantee if I would've grabbed a drink, within 10 minutes they would have said "Jen, we remember you, remember when......" I spent most of the drive home crying and praising the Lord for rescuing me from myself years ago. For once, going to the bar, was truly like "traveling to Egypt". I was a stranger in a strange land. Even my flesh didn't want to be there, not just my heart and mind! It used to be that I would sit in church and feel like I didn't belong. Now, I no longer fit in the world. Praise the Lord! It is awesome! To be honest, I had a hard time choosing my verse this morning, there are so many I want to pick. hmmmm.....maybe we will have new creation week.......
2 corinthians 5:17 This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
Love you all-
jen
2 corinthians 5:17 This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
Love you all-
jen
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