Good Morning Girls!  Yesterday was not so great.  I found myself frustrated over many things throughout the day.  I found myself developing a "what about me" and a "why" attitude.  "Why is it so hard all the time?".  "Why can't I do it this way?".  "Why am I even doing this?".  "What's in this for me?".  "When am I going to find out what all of this is heading towards?".  "When will it ever be enough?".  Let me tell you where this line of thinking got me......nowhere......fast.  While I was having these thoughts, I new they were not how I truly felt, but I couldn't seem to stop them.  They kind of snuck up on me.  When something sneaks up on you, it's hard to defend yourself and fight it off compared to when you see it coming.  By the time I realized I had been meditating on lies, instead of the Word, it was too late.  My guard was down, and my self-control was all but gone (evident by the fact that I sat in a somewhat catatonic state and ate a half a bag of chips and salsa until I felt sick......something I have not done in months).  I called my friend and mentor, and she gave me the pep talk that I needed, and helped  me get back on track.  However, the physical damage had already been done.  I felt sick all night, and this morning I definitely have a salt hangover.  I also had to forgive myself for being such a whineball and allowing the enemy to steal my joy all day.  Yesterday should have been a mini celebration.  My "after photo day".  Instead, I let the devil turn it into "torment Jen day".  After I got back on track, the devil got one last dig in, by pointing out the fact that though I won in the end, he still got the day.  Something I cannot change, I can only move forward from.  Now, in the big picture of life, this isolated incident is not a big deal.  What I am hoping you will see is that it is an example of how wrong thinking leads to actions that take you away from your goals.  I feel fortunate that I was reminded of this with only a stomachache.  I am now reminded of the need to be alert at all times, as the enemy wants nothing more than to see me fail!

1 Peter 5:8  Be self controlled and alert.  Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour

Love you all-
Jen