Good Morning Girls!  Before we begin I need to set the record straight.  I love my husband.  I think he is a great man, and an excellent provider.  I know he loves me and the kids.  Over the next 40 days I feel as though I am going to be sharing with you all more of my life than I have in the past.  I ask that you respect the things you read.  I ask that you keep it in your heart, and to yourself.  I ask that you do not misinterpret the feelings I work through as a message that I am unhappy, or do not love Tom.  I am using this blog as a journal.  It is personal.  I will share with you more than I have in the past.  I will also only share that which I feel is beneficial.  This will not be a dumping ground.  Thanks for understanding.
 Yesterdays assignment: do not say anything negative to your spouse.  That was easy for me, but not for the reason you may think.  It wasn't easy because I am so loving and thoughtful and kind and think nothing but sweet thoughts.  It wasn't because I am good at biting my tongue.  It wasn't because Tom was gone all day.  NO, the reason it was easy was a sad revelation for me.   I realized it was easy to say nothing negative to him because we hardly say anything to each other.  We were at home all day, yet we probably said 100 words or less to each other.  Our communication is very purposeful.  "Did Thomas eat anything?"  "Can you help Thomas with a bath?"  "Can I get you anything?"  Here, you can watch tv up here, I am going downstairs"  I am not exaggerating.  There was no talk of anything other than matter of fact communication.  I realized this about 4pm.....I started to shut down completely.  I spent the rest of my day trying to remember the last time he shared anything with me.  I tried to remember the last time he responded with interest when I shared something with him.  I realized that he has no idea the goals and dreams in my heart, yet they are posted on a website for the whole world to read! 
Tom is a very private person.  I am a very open person.  I have understood this dynamic from the start of our relationship.  Yet, in the past, somehow we still met in the middle.  Somewhere along the lines, I quit trying to crack his shell.  He probably thinks all is well.  He grew up in a "keep it on the inside" family.  My family is more of a "lay it all out there".  He probably has no idea how I long to share my heart with him, and how I long to know his.  We are both at fault, though right now, it seems it is up to me to start making changes.  So that's what I am going to do. 

Todays assignment:
In addition to saying nothing negative to your spouse, do at least one unexpected gesture as an act of kindness.

Questions:
What discoveries about love did you make today? What specifically did you do in this dare?  How did you show kindness?

Ephesians 4:32 Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you

Love you all-
Jen