Good Morning Girls!  Sorry about the last minute break from writing last week.  I will tell you all on Wednesday what I was I doing. 

I've already told you that being a "She" is not always easy.  You will have to step out of your comfort zone from time to time.  You will have to face your fears.  You will be subject to criticism.  Here's another truth you need to understand.......you will make mistakes.  You may offer wrong advice.  You may miss a call for help.  You may plain and simple....screw up!
A few months ago I believe I heard a prompting from the Spirit to do something.  Now at the time I didn't think it was a prompting, I thought it was simply "an idea" I had.  I dismissed this idea for numerous reasons.  Later on I had the same thought and when it came I said "I wonder, is that from you Lord?".  However, by then it was too late to act on it, even if there had been an audible "YES" (which there never is.)
I found out the next day that something happened with the person that I had had "an idea" about.  Something that may have not happened had I acted on "my" idea.  It tormented me.  I felt horrible and responsible.  It took me a couple of weeks to forgive myself.  And as you can probably tell, it is a lesson I have not forgotten.  The lesson being: there is nothing worse than wondering "What If", especially when it comes to someone else's life.
It took me weeks to fully bounce back from that one.  I doubted myself all the time.  I felt I had lost all wisdom and discernment.  I second guessed my every move.  I was afraid I might screw up someone else's life.
Now during this time the Holy Spirit ministered to me, assuring me that it was not my fault.  If I would have acted on "my idea", the outcome for that person would still be the same.  However, the outcome for me would have been different.  You see, I would have been left with the peace of knowing I had tried the one thing I knew to do, even though my offer would have been rejected.  
Girls, here is what I want you to understand.  God knows we are not perfect.  He created us in His image, but He did not create us to be perfect.  He isn't shocked when we make a mistake.  He isn't mad at us when we fail to act on a prompting from the Spirit.  In fact, I think He grieved with me, for me, at the pain and anguish I went through during the experience I described above.  It was difficult for Him to watch me go through it, just as it is difficult for us to watch one of our children hurting.
Yes, He knew the situation above was going to happen.  He knew it before I even took my first breath.  He knew I would hurt.  But He also knew it would in the end make me more aware of future promptings from the Holy Spirit.  It would, in the end, make me stronger.  Make me hungrier.  It would bring me closer to Him, not relying on my own "ideas", but relying on His voice, and His wisdom.
So girls, when you screw up....and you will......don't think for a second God is looking down at you saying "I can't believe she just did that!"  "I am shocked!"  "I guess I was wrong.....she is not the "She" I thought she was".  Oh no, that is not what is going on.  In fact, when you screw up......and you will......God is looking down thinking "there "She" is......My girl.  Now get back up Girl, dust yourself off, and go finish the good work I have planned for you.  You're still my girl......and I love you!"

Psalm 139:16 You saw me before I was born.  Every day of my life was recorded in your book.  Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

Love you all-
Jen