Chasing my Tail?
Good Morning Girls! For the last few weeks I feel as though my writing as been all over the place. One day it is on exercise, the next it is on a personal struggle. Then I try to focus on fitness again only to find myself in the Word looking for the strength and encouragement simply to live my life with joy.....let alone without sugar! Yes, I have been feeling a little scattered in my thoughts....
I started getting down on myself for being so disorganized. In the past I believed the Lord would show me a subject to study and write about, and I would stick to it, and finish it. Now, I have clarity and focus one day on one thing, and the next day it is like "what was I talking about?".
Like any good Christian I thought it was somehow my fault. Something I am doing wrong. "I bet it's because I keep falling off the sugar wagon that I haven't been "hearing" from the Lord lately". "I bet it's because I have said out loud a few "negative confessions" that now the anointing is gone." "Have I lost my faith?" "Are my struggles preventing me from being used by God?" Criminy, I tell you....for someone who claims to be grounded in the Word of God, I have been all over the place! Yes us "good Christians" love to blame ourselves. We love to carry our cross around. The bigger the better. In fact, let's decorate our cross with some bling so everyone takes notice of the cross we are carrying. How big it is. How it is wearing us down. How our knees are buckling under the weight of it. Let's go ahead and paint it pink so it at least matches our wardrobe....as I now believe I will be carrying it around with me for a long.....long....time.
Yep. That pretty much sums up how I have been feeling. Even last night as I was studying and trying to figure out the direction this week should go, I struggled. I mean do I forget the hard places most of us are in so I can focus on goal setting and fitness? Or do I set aside the healthy living for awhile and spend time encouraging you all to live your life with joy? As I studied and read, the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart. Here is what He showed me. It's not that I am all over the place. I am not scattered. It is because my body and my Spirit are intertwined that I have been "bouncing back and forth". It is hard to pursue my health goals when I feel like I am losing faith in the other areas of my life. Just as it is hard to be strong in my faith when when body is sick, weak, and tired. They are not separate. They are dependent on each other.
So where does that lead us? I don't know. I know I want to start talking about goal setting and discipline and such, but I am also on fire for the Lord! I had an experience like no other this weekend at church. God showed me in many many ways that He knows where I am at, and what I am in need of. He corrected me, humbled me, loved on me, and encouraged me all within the same 4 hours at church! And I am telling you, I walked out with a renewed love for my Pastor, my church, and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! So, I have the feeling I will be on a bit of a preach this week. But hey, that's good. It's good because I have found that when you are strong in your faith, when you can walk with the confidence that the Lord has it all worked out for you, when you go to bed and wake up with the joy of the Lord, you will be in a much stronger position to take on new health and fitness goals. When you have the peace that passes all understanding....it is easier to pass on the piece that causes thighs everlasting!
So Girls, start thinking about some goals you may have. Ask the Lord what He desires for you. Ask yourself what you desire for you. I wrote out some 6 weeks goals last night.....not sure when I will start working towards all of them, but they are there, waiting for me. The fact that I can see past today with a smile on my face, tells me that my body and my Spirit are finally coming together again. So start thinking about those goals.....you never know when I may feel inspired to jump in and take them on (and I like to bring others with me)!
3 John 1:2 Dear friend, I hope all is well with you and that you are as healthy in body as you are strong in Spirit!
Love you all-
Jen
I started getting down on myself for being so disorganized. In the past I believed the Lord would show me a subject to study and write about, and I would stick to it, and finish it. Now, I have clarity and focus one day on one thing, and the next day it is like "what was I talking about?".
Like any good Christian I thought it was somehow my fault. Something I am doing wrong. "I bet it's because I keep falling off the sugar wagon that I haven't been "hearing" from the Lord lately". "I bet it's because I have said out loud a few "negative confessions" that now the anointing is gone." "Have I lost my faith?" "Are my struggles preventing me from being used by God?" Criminy, I tell you....for someone who claims to be grounded in the Word of God, I have been all over the place! Yes us "good Christians" love to blame ourselves. We love to carry our cross around. The bigger the better. In fact, let's decorate our cross with some bling so everyone takes notice of the cross we are carrying. How big it is. How it is wearing us down. How our knees are buckling under the weight of it. Let's go ahead and paint it pink so it at least matches our wardrobe....as I now believe I will be carrying it around with me for a long.....long....time.
Yep. That pretty much sums up how I have been feeling. Even last night as I was studying and trying to figure out the direction this week should go, I struggled. I mean do I forget the hard places most of us are in so I can focus on goal setting and fitness? Or do I set aside the healthy living for awhile and spend time encouraging you all to live your life with joy? As I studied and read, the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart. Here is what He showed me. It's not that I am all over the place. I am not scattered. It is because my body and my Spirit are intertwined that I have been "bouncing back and forth". It is hard to pursue my health goals when I feel like I am losing faith in the other areas of my life. Just as it is hard to be strong in my faith when when body is sick, weak, and tired. They are not separate. They are dependent on each other.
So where does that lead us? I don't know. I know I want to start talking about goal setting and discipline and such, but I am also on fire for the Lord! I had an experience like no other this weekend at church. God showed me in many many ways that He knows where I am at, and what I am in need of. He corrected me, humbled me, loved on me, and encouraged me all within the same 4 hours at church! And I am telling you, I walked out with a renewed love for my Pastor, my church, and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! So, I have the feeling I will be on a bit of a preach this week. But hey, that's good. It's good because I have found that when you are strong in your faith, when you can walk with the confidence that the Lord has it all worked out for you, when you go to bed and wake up with the joy of the Lord, you will be in a much stronger position to take on new health and fitness goals. When you have the peace that passes all understanding....it is easier to pass on the piece that causes thighs everlasting!
So Girls, start thinking about some goals you may have. Ask the Lord what He desires for you. Ask yourself what you desire for you. I wrote out some 6 weeks goals last night.....not sure when I will start working towards all of them, but they are there, waiting for me. The fact that I can see past today with a smile on my face, tells me that my body and my Spirit are finally coming together again. So start thinking about those goals.....you never know when I may feel inspired to jump in and take them on (and I like to bring others with me)!
3 John 1:2 Dear friend, I hope all is well with you and that you are as healthy in body as you are strong in Spirit!
Love you all-
Jen
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