Good Morning Girls!  I am not much of a worrier.  I never have been.  I tend to go with the flow, or try to control the flow, but I've never really worried about the flow.  Praise the Lord for that as I come from a family where half of them are power worriers.  They even worry more about me and my family than I do!
So how is it that I am not a worrier?  Is it because of my great faith?  Well that is some of it.  However, I was not much of a worrier even before I was a Christian, which leads me to believe it is simply part of my personality.  Looking back I see myself often shrugging my shoulders saying "oh well", and moving on to plan B.  Sure I may get upset when things don't go the way I had planned, but I still don't worry about it.
There are a few things that have come up over the years that I can remember worrying about for a while.  Usually they involve my kids.  Worrying about what school to send them to, and other decisions.  They were never big things, and I never lost sleep over them.  I simply focused too much of my thought life on them.  Which, too me is considered worry.
Two weeks ago, that all changed.  I suddenly found myself worrying about my circumstances.  I worried about the current situation, and then I started worrying about where that situation could lead to .  I started playing the "what then", "what if" game.  When I was a kid I used to read these "choose your own ending" books.  I would read a chapter and at the end it would say something like "If you want the princess to break free turn to page 46.  If you want the princess to remain captured, turn to page 57."  Then I would turn to the designated page and read that chapter.  You would pick the direction of the book at various stages in the story, and it would in the end determine the outcome.  It was fun because you could read the same book many times, but never have it be the same.  You also got to "control" the story and the people in it.  It was a fun.  However, a couple of weeks ago I was treating my life like it was one of these books.  I found myself looking at each "chapter" and then trying to play out the next chapter based on what may or may not happen.  I did a lot of "If this....then that".  The problem is that we really don't know what the outcome will be.  Sure, we can guess and do our best based on the information we currently have.  But even then, I feel like we are eliminating the power of divine intervention on our behalf!  Each time I turned to the next "chapter", I was saying "just in case God doesn't help us with this......we have these 2 options".  Now don't get me wrong.  It's important to have a plan in case things don't go as you hope they will.  It doesn't have to be a perfect, well thought of plan though.  For example, I would think "If we suddenly had to move tomorrow, would we have a place to go?"  The answer is yes.  That is as far into the plan as I need to get.  I do not need to address all the decisions that would come with a move at this time.  I need not think about school, church, and everything else right now.  I simply need to know my family has a place to go if necessary.  And we do, so there, time to go with the flow until we know.
I can honestly say I am back to my worry free self!  There is a lot of great Scripture on worry.  You all know them.  But I'm all for keeping it as simple as can be.  Next time you find you are treating your life like a "choose you own ending story", ask yourself  today's verse. After you answer, come hang out with me.......I'm the one going with the flow (and still sometimes trying to control it)

Luke 12:25 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

Love you all-
Jen