Retract
Good Morning Girls! Last Thursday I posted a blog saying that I was going to start sharing some details of a "testimony in progress" that my family is experiencing. I usually don't share these kinds of things until I am on the other side of them, but I feel so strong in my heart that everything is going to work out that I wanted to start sharing and bring you along on the journey. I truly felt it was Holy Spirit inspired to do such a thing, and I was excited.
Imagine my surprise when someone whom I respect responded "wait a minute sister, you better think again about what you are doing!". Okay, so that isn't the words that were used, but that is the just of it. I was stumped. I so felt that what was in my heart was right....how could I be so wrong? I called my friend and we went back and forth stating our cases, and in the end, I believed she was right. As much as I had been excited, I didn't want to move too soon, and so I reluctantly, but willingly, deleted my post.....something I have never had to do before. To be honest with you, it shook me a little. Not because I had made a mistake, but because it is simple things like that that can make me wonder how many times I get so excited, believing I am following the leading of the Holy Ghost, but really it is me following the lead of me. The thought of that really scares me. If I am not careful, it can send me into a tailspin.
I didn't write on Friday. I didn't even try. I felt a little nervous.....a little rattled......a little apprehensive. I didn't even want to deal with it. In fact, even this morning, though there are great things in my heart and in my head, I feel like I cannot formulate them and put them down like I want to. Oh, it would be so much easier if you all would just come and sit on my couch and let me speak to you from my heart, and share with you all. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother to write. It's not like I have it any more together than the next Girl. Who am I to sit here and offer advice and insight? In fact, I am probably more of a mess than those of you reading!
Then I come to my senses and remember why I bother to write. It is not because I know more. It is not because I have insight that you can't get anywhere else. No. The reason I write is so you can see this work in progress as she plugs along day to day.....trying to figure out the mysteries of life. Trying to figure out her place in the world. Trying to live out a life worthy of the call the Lord has placed on her......whatever that call may be.
So I made a mistake. Big deal. I make a million of them a day (okay maybe not a million, but there are times when it feels like it). I don't believe you are reading this because you want to be perfect (if you are, oh may Jesus help you). I believe you are reading to be encouraged. I believe you are most often encouraged when you see me get back up. When you see me push through. When you see me go out on a limb. When you hear me say "I made a craptastic mistake.....but I am getting back up (again) and moving forward, the best that I can.
And so Girls, though I feel as though I have wasted your time this morning with drivel, I am going to post this drivel in hopes that if any of you made a mistake this weekend, you run to Jesus and ask for help, rather than running from Him, feeling like you disappointed him (again). If my drivel can inspire one Girl to get back up, then it is worth it!
1 Peter 5:12 My purpose in writing is to encourage you and assure you that what you are experiencing is truly part of God's grace for you. Stand firm in this grace.
Love you all-
The Driveler
Imagine my surprise when someone whom I respect responded "wait a minute sister, you better think again about what you are doing!". Okay, so that isn't the words that were used, but that is the just of it. I was stumped. I so felt that what was in my heart was right....how could I be so wrong? I called my friend and we went back and forth stating our cases, and in the end, I believed she was right. As much as I had been excited, I didn't want to move too soon, and so I reluctantly, but willingly, deleted my post.....something I have never had to do before. To be honest with you, it shook me a little. Not because I had made a mistake, but because it is simple things like that that can make me wonder how many times I get so excited, believing I am following the leading of the Holy Ghost, but really it is me following the lead of me. The thought of that really scares me. If I am not careful, it can send me into a tailspin.
I didn't write on Friday. I didn't even try. I felt a little nervous.....a little rattled......a little apprehensive. I didn't even want to deal with it. In fact, even this morning, though there are great things in my heart and in my head, I feel like I cannot formulate them and put them down like I want to. Oh, it would be so much easier if you all would just come and sit on my couch and let me speak to you from my heart, and share with you all. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother to write. It's not like I have it any more together than the next Girl. Who am I to sit here and offer advice and insight? In fact, I am probably more of a mess than those of you reading!
Then I come to my senses and remember why I bother to write. It is not because I know more. It is not because I have insight that you can't get anywhere else. No. The reason I write is so you can see this work in progress as she plugs along day to day.....trying to figure out the mysteries of life. Trying to figure out her place in the world. Trying to live out a life worthy of the call the Lord has placed on her......whatever that call may be.
So I made a mistake. Big deal. I make a million of them a day (okay maybe not a million, but there are times when it feels like it). I don't believe you are reading this because you want to be perfect (if you are, oh may Jesus help you). I believe you are reading to be encouraged. I believe you are most often encouraged when you see me get back up. When you see me push through. When you see me go out on a limb. When you hear me say "I made a craptastic mistake.....but I am getting back up (again) and moving forward, the best that I can.
And so Girls, though I feel as though I have wasted your time this morning with drivel, I am going to post this drivel in hopes that if any of you made a mistake this weekend, you run to Jesus and ask for help, rather than running from Him, feeling like you disappointed him (again). If my drivel can inspire one Girl to get back up, then it is worth it!
1 Peter 5:12 My purpose in writing is to encourage you and assure you that what you are experiencing is truly part of God's grace for you. Stand firm in this grace.
Love you all-
The Driveler
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