Thumb Twiddling......
Good Morning Girls! So one of the things I am struggling with these days is trying to figure out what I am supposed to do in the fall when Thomas starts school. He will be gone all day Mondays, Wednesdays, and alternating Fridays. This will leave me with a huge amount of kid free time. Now I know I could easily fill this time, that is not the problem. The problem is that I believe it is time to "do something". You know...do something.....something of value......something with purpose.....something wonderfully life changing for the world.....you know, just a little something......
But what.....I don't know. I know there are things I would like to do. I know there are things I am naturally good at. I know there are things I am passionate about. But I just don't know how I am supposed to go about doing the things I think I may want to do. And that's where the waiting begins.....and you all know how good I am at that! Ugh! Could someone just give me a to-do list please? Put this Girl out of her misery! I know I could jump in and start something, but I really believe I am to wait on direction from the Lord. Problem is, I feel like I am at the bottom of the "give life direction" list. When I am not feeling that way, I spend my time wondering if I even have ears to hear anymore. Perhaps He has been telling me what to do and I am still looking around dazed and confused like a six year old looking for the shoes that you keep pointing at and telling him (ever so nicely of course) to put on. Can anyone else else feel my pain?
And so I wait. Some days patiently. Other days.....well not so much. Just want to be ready when the whistle blows and it's time to move. But hey- today it's supposed to be 86 and sunny......so I'm going to do my waiting outside in the sun. Those waiting days are definitely the easiest........
Psalm 119:73 You made me, you created me. Now give me the sense to follow your commands! (and can I add sooner than later to that verse?)
Love, thanks, and never ending patience to you all,
Jen
But what.....I don't know. I know there are things I would like to do. I know there are things I am naturally good at. I know there are things I am passionate about. But I just don't know how I am supposed to go about doing the things I think I may want to do. And that's where the waiting begins.....and you all know how good I am at that! Ugh! Could someone just give me a to-do list please? Put this Girl out of her misery! I know I could jump in and start something, but I really believe I am to wait on direction from the Lord. Problem is, I feel like I am at the bottom of the "give life direction" list. When I am not feeling that way, I spend my time wondering if I even have ears to hear anymore. Perhaps He has been telling me what to do and I am still looking around dazed and confused like a six year old looking for the shoes that you keep pointing at and telling him (ever so nicely of course) to put on. Can anyone else else feel my pain?
And so I wait. Some days patiently. Other days.....well not so much. Just want to be ready when the whistle blows and it's time to move. But hey- today it's supposed to be 86 and sunny......so I'm going to do my waiting outside in the sun. Those waiting days are definitely the easiest........
Psalm 119:73 You made me, you created me. Now give me the sense to follow your commands! (and can I add sooner than later to that verse?)
Love, thanks, and never ending patience to you all,
Jen
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