Lifeguard Duty
Hello Girls! It's been 21 days since my last post. Not sure what happened, but my website would not load. Hopefully it is back for good. Twenty one days.......let's see.....where do I begin.......
A friend asked me the other day how I was doing. My response was "it depends on what minute of the day you ask me." To say I have been a little up and down these days is a huge understatement. Sometimes my days are filled with such ups and downs that if I could somehow market my emotional roller coaster as a thrill ride at a theme park, I would definitely be a millionaire!
So what could possibly have me reeling from one end of the bi-polar spectrum to another at such warp speeds? That would be both nothing and everything at the same time. There have been no dramatic events or crisis that have occurred. Rather it is the day to day life that has me confused and scattered. I guess it can best be summed up as an identity crisis.
This year, my youngest headed off to kindergarten. He is on that weird all day Monday and Wednesday and random Fridays schedule. This means I have enough time on my hands to start working again, but not enough to dive into anything full time. For those of you who know me......I'm a diver! I do not wade in and test the waters. That is torture to me. I'm the one who dives in and loves the thrill of the shock when your body hits the water and takes your breath away!
But here I am. Feeling stuck in the shallow end with the other kids who did not pass the swim test that enables them to dive into deeper waters. And what is worse is that I am also feeling like even if I did pass the swim test, I still am not sure if I am really ready to swim.
For the last 9 years I have had to answer to nobody. I can wear sweatpants to work. I can work my hiney off like a madwomen one day doing laundry and cleaning house and play at the beach the next. I have been paid in hugs and kisses. And my alarm clock has collected dust. I am discovering that re-entry is not as easy as I have been thinking it would be.
It's only been two weeks since school started and already I am the one who has learned more life lessons than I would have ever thought imaginable. I have discovered some great things about myself. i have also discovered some things that....well.....lets just say if I were trying to pass out of a swim test, these characteristics would be graded as "needs improvement".
As always, I am more than willing to share these lessons with you all. I am willing because I believe I am not alone. I believe many of you have or are or someday will have yourself a mini identity crisis. I want you to know that you are not alone. It can be scary, but in the end, everything will be fine. It will be more than fine. It will be blessed beyond measure!
I made a lot of pool references today. My heart is on my friend who is a lifeguard. She watches over those who are wading in the kiddie pool as well as those who are diving and training for tri-athalons. Doesn't matter what level they are at, if they are struggling or need help, she is there for them.
You know, we all have a Lifeguard. Whether you are in the kiddie pool changing diapers, or swimming laps as a corporate CEO, He is there to help you if you start struggling. Whether you simply need a moment to rest, or are in full need of resuscitation, He is there! If you find yourself struggling and gasping for air, stop kicking and screaming, lie back, and let the Lifeguard revive you!
Psalm 119:25 I lie in the dust (or floating in the pool); revive me by your word
Love, peace, and a drowning free day to you all,
Jen
A friend asked me the other day how I was doing. My response was "it depends on what minute of the day you ask me." To say I have been a little up and down these days is a huge understatement. Sometimes my days are filled with such ups and downs that if I could somehow market my emotional roller coaster as a thrill ride at a theme park, I would definitely be a millionaire!
So what could possibly have me reeling from one end of the bi-polar spectrum to another at such warp speeds? That would be both nothing and everything at the same time. There have been no dramatic events or crisis that have occurred. Rather it is the day to day life that has me confused and scattered. I guess it can best be summed up as an identity crisis.
This year, my youngest headed off to kindergarten. He is on that weird all day Monday and Wednesday and random Fridays schedule. This means I have enough time on my hands to start working again, but not enough to dive into anything full time. For those of you who know me......I'm a diver! I do not wade in and test the waters. That is torture to me. I'm the one who dives in and loves the thrill of the shock when your body hits the water and takes your breath away!
But here I am. Feeling stuck in the shallow end with the other kids who did not pass the swim test that enables them to dive into deeper waters. And what is worse is that I am also feeling like even if I did pass the swim test, I still am not sure if I am really ready to swim.
For the last 9 years I have had to answer to nobody. I can wear sweatpants to work. I can work my hiney off like a madwomen one day doing laundry and cleaning house and play at the beach the next. I have been paid in hugs and kisses. And my alarm clock has collected dust. I am discovering that re-entry is not as easy as I have been thinking it would be.
It's only been two weeks since school started and already I am the one who has learned more life lessons than I would have ever thought imaginable. I have discovered some great things about myself. i have also discovered some things that....well.....lets just say if I were trying to pass out of a swim test, these characteristics would be graded as "needs improvement".
As always, I am more than willing to share these lessons with you all. I am willing because I believe I am not alone. I believe many of you have or are or someday will have yourself a mini identity crisis. I want you to know that you are not alone. It can be scary, but in the end, everything will be fine. It will be more than fine. It will be blessed beyond measure!
I made a lot of pool references today. My heart is on my friend who is a lifeguard. She watches over those who are wading in the kiddie pool as well as those who are diving and training for tri-athalons. Doesn't matter what level they are at, if they are struggling or need help, she is there for them.
You know, we all have a Lifeguard. Whether you are in the kiddie pool changing diapers, or swimming laps as a corporate CEO, He is there to help you if you start struggling. Whether you simply need a moment to rest, or are in full need of resuscitation, He is there! If you find yourself struggling and gasping for air, stop kicking and screaming, lie back, and let the Lifeguard revive you!
Psalm 119:25 I lie in the dust (or floating in the pool); revive me by your word
Love, peace, and a drowning free day to you all,
Jen
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