You Want me to go Where???
Good Morning Girls! Those of you closest to me know that I have been struggling with my new job. I have been struggling for a few reasons. Today I would like to talk about the reason I come back to every time I am feeling a little stressed out by my job.
That reason is: I am still a little shocked that this is the direction my life has taken!!! Just months ago I seriously thought I was pursuing my dream. I was writing a devotional, planning workshops, having marketing photos and brochures put together, and then "poof!" it imploded right before my eyes.
Now I am totally over that last experience. There are no longer any hurt feelings there. It's just that my current career path if you will could not be further from where I thought my life was going.
So on those days when I am out working my sales areas I often struggle with these two thoughts (well and a million more but these are the two biggies). They are directed at God and they are : 1. You want me to go where? and 2. So this is really the plan huh?
I do not mean these questions to be disrespectful to the Lord. I am thankful that I have a job, which may very well turn into a career. I actually enjoy many parts of the job itself. I can also see how what I am doing now could very well develop into something awesome and exciting.
It's just that whole initial shock value. It's those two questions: You want me to go where? and This is the plan? That I struggle with while I am out in the "field" (see, I am using sales terms again.....ugh!)
I think that is why I felt such comfort while I was reading the Faith Hall of Fame chapter in Hebrews. This time when I read some of the things our founding fathers of faith did, I stopped to meditate on it a bit rather than shrug and say "wow. that was great that they did that". I actually stopped to think about what it must have been like for them.
For example, lets take a look at Noah. The story of Noah and the Ark has in the past been minimized to a cute bible song and story for children with a happy ending complete with rainbows. This time I didn't think about the ending as much as I thought about Noah. I am sure he asked the Lord more than once "You want me to do what?" "This is really the plan huh?".
I never thought much about it before but Noah lived in the desert! I heard a preacher say once he had never ever seen or heard of rain. So not only is he building this gigantic boat, but he is building it in anticipation of something he never even heard of before.
Picture this. He's up on the deck of this huge boat. The neighbors come over and ask "Noah, what are you doing." "I'm building a boat" he replies. "Why?" they ask. "Because it is going to rain so much that the entire earth will be flooded!" he says. "What is rain?" they ask. "I am not sure but it apparently falls out of the sky and lands on the ground and stays there and keeps falling and staying until this huge boat will be floating and everything on the ground will be wiped out." "Riiiiiiiightttttttt", they say and call him a stupid idiot and walk away saying to each other "Can you believe that guy? What is his deal? Rain....water drops falling from the sky.......what a nutjob!"
Now I am in no way comparing my job to the task that was set before Noah. I am just saying that it is okay for me to think that the current task set before me is a little odd at times. I also find comfort in the happy ending of the Ark.....well happy for all those in the boat at least.
Which really brings us to the most important point- Noah's "Is this really the plan?" moment saved his life and brought about an everlasting covenant with God. It landed him in the Faith Hall of Fame. There is safety and reward in the will of God. It may not always be easy. It may not always be understandable. It may come with a little humility, self doubt, and fear....but in the end, the "plan" is always perfect!
So Girls, if you find yourself in a "You want me to go Where?" moment in your life, don't assume you are not living the plan the Lord has set for you. It may not make sense right now, but I am sure some day it will. I decided today that I am going to ask the Lord for a little glimpse of the "rainbow"....just a glimpse.....to reassure me that I am in fact in the will of God right now. I admit, I feel a childlike excitement wondering when and where I am going to see it!
Hebrews 11:7 It was by faith that Noah built a large boat to save his family from the flood. He obeyed God, who warned him about things that had never happened before.
Love, grace, and rainbows to you all,
Jen
That reason is: I am still a little shocked that this is the direction my life has taken!!! Just months ago I seriously thought I was pursuing my dream. I was writing a devotional, planning workshops, having marketing photos and brochures put together, and then "poof!" it imploded right before my eyes.
Now I am totally over that last experience. There are no longer any hurt feelings there. It's just that my current career path if you will could not be further from where I thought my life was going.
So on those days when I am out working my sales areas I often struggle with these two thoughts (well and a million more but these are the two biggies). They are directed at God and they are : 1. You want me to go where? and 2. So this is really the plan huh?
I do not mean these questions to be disrespectful to the Lord. I am thankful that I have a job, which may very well turn into a career. I actually enjoy many parts of the job itself. I can also see how what I am doing now could very well develop into something awesome and exciting.
It's just that whole initial shock value. It's those two questions: You want me to go where? and This is the plan? That I struggle with while I am out in the "field" (see, I am using sales terms again.....ugh!)
I think that is why I felt such comfort while I was reading the Faith Hall of Fame chapter in Hebrews. This time when I read some of the things our founding fathers of faith did, I stopped to meditate on it a bit rather than shrug and say "wow. that was great that they did that". I actually stopped to think about what it must have been like for them.
For example, lets take a look at Noah. The story of Noah and the Ark has in the past been minimized to a cute bible song and story for children with a happy ending complete with rainbows. This time I didn't think about the ending as much as I thought about Noah. I am sure he asked the Lord more than once "You want me to do what?" "This is really the plan huh?".
I never thought much about it before but Noah lived in the desert! I heard a preacher say once he had never ever seen or heard of rain. So not only is he building this gigantic boat, but he is building it in anticipation of something he never even heard of before.
Picture this. He's up on the deck of this huge boat. The neighbors come over and ask "Noah, what are you doing." "I'm building a boat" he replies. "Why?" they ask. "Because it is going to rain so much that the entire earth will be flooded!" he says. "What is rain?" they ask. "I am not sure but it apparently falls out of the sky and lands on the ground and stays there and keeps falling and staying until this huge boat will be floating and everything on the ground will be wiped out." "Riiiiiiiightttttttt", they say and call him a stupid idiot and walk away saying to each other "Can you believe that guy? What is his deal? Rain....water drops falling from the sky.......what a nutjob!"
Now I am in no way comparing my job to the task that was set before Noah. I am just saying that it is okay for me to think that the current task set before me is a little odd at times. I also find comfort in the happy ending of the Ark.....well happy for all those in the boat at least.
Which really brings us to the most important point- Noah's "Is this really the plan?" moment saved his life and brought about an everlasting covenant with God. It landed him in the Faith Hall of Fame. There is safety and reward in the will of God. It may not always be easy. It may not always be understandable. It may come with a little humility, self doubt, and fear....but in the end, the "plan" is always perfect!
So Girls, if you find yourself in a "You want me to go Where?" moment in your life, don't assume you are not living the plan the Lord has set for you. It may not make sense right now, but I am sure some day it will. I decided today that I am going to ask the Lord for a little glimpse of the "rainbow"....just a glimpse.....to reassure me that I am in fact in the will of God right now. I admit, I feel a childlike excitement wondering when and where I am going to see it!
Hebrews 11:7 It was by faith that Noah built a large boat to save his family from the flood. He obeyed God, who warned him about things that had never happened before.
Love, grace, and rainbows to you all,
Jen
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