Despite me saying there is no way we are getting a pet anytime soon, we now have a cat. I won’t go into the details of how we permanently acquired the cat, as it doesn’t really matter. What matters is that now we have a cat- complete with a cat box, kennel, and living room floor full of various cat-stimulating toys…
I informed my kids I would have nothing to do with the care of this cat, other than to pick up the cat food and liter from Target when the kids informed me (with at least 48 hours notice) that these supplies were needed. I would not feed the cat. I would not tend to the liter box. I would not even pet or play with it.
That may sound harsh but I have my reasons. The first one is the fact that we have buried three pets in four years, and I simply do not have the heart capacity or emotional capability for another pet right now. The second reason is despite the kids claiming responsibility of the care of the last two pets, I am the one who ends up caring for the pets (mom- I know you are probably smiling a little bit as I believe the same thing happened to you as us girls were growing up :).
For the most part, the kids are keeping their promise and doing a great job with the cat (somehow the older one has put the responsibility on her younger brother). Here’s the problem though- I am the first one up in the morning. As soon as I get up, despite how quiet I try to be, the cat comes running and crying. It wants breakfast. Good luck trying to ignore her, she is relentless. So despite my pledge to not care for it, I am going downstairs to feed her.
Feeding her takes only a minute so it’s not a big deal. However, after breakfast she seems to want some love and attention. As I sit down with my morning cup of coffee, Bible, journal, and laptop, the cat starts crying again. I present her with all of her toys but she is not having it. She wants love.
She jumps up on the couch and confidently walks across my laptop which is on my lap. SHE STEPS ON THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON or worse, the page top or discard button. She doesn’t care. She is oblivious. All she knows is that she wants some love. She will walk back and forth across my laptop, Bible, or whatever is in the way until I move it. She doesn’t mind dipping her tail in my coffee either.
This morning as she stood in place on my laptop I did what I always do. I gave in. I stopped what I was doing and made room for her. I then started petting her in a way that got her pur motor going (the fact that I even know how to get her purring bugs me as it violates my “no bonding” rule).
As I listened to her pur I thought about how we, as daughters of the Most High God, could learn a thing or two from this cat. We need to be as confident as she is when she wants love and affection. We need to approach the Father’s throne with the assumption that there is nothing He would rather do than drop everything else to love on us, especially because it is true.
It says in Hebrews 4:16 Therefore let us [with privilege] approach the throne of grace [that is, the throne of God’s gracious favor] with confidence and without fear, so that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find [His amazing] grace to help in time of need [an appropriate blessing, coming just at the right moment].
God loves it when we come confidently to Him despite our flaws, weaknesses, and failures.. He loves it because it shows Him that we understand his fierce love for us. We understand that his love for us is not based on us. It is not about what we do or what we achieve. It is not based on a points system. We do not earn more love when we do good, just as we are not disqualified from His love when we fall short.
Oh that we would start our day walking back and forth across the lap of our Father until we have a full revelation of His love! That we would wait upon Him until our pur motors were running- our hearts filled with the overwhelming sense of forgiveness, completeness, love, and grace. Imagine the confidence we could head into our day with by having fresh revelation of his love for us, as well as a fresh blessing upon us!
To think a stray cat could remind me of such Truth.
I encourage you to take some time today to go boldly to the throne of grace. Bring your flaws, fears, worries, concerns, and failures with you. Let His love and grace turn them into things of beauty that will be used for good. Let Him love on you until your heart is purring.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for loving me. Thank you for wanting to spend time with me. Thank you for inviting me to come boldly to your throne of grace each morning. Give me a fresh revelation of your love and grace towards me. Fill me to the overflow with your love so I can carry it out into the world. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Love, Grace, and a Purring Heart,