Now you are ready, my bride, to come with me as we climb the highest peaks together. Come with me through the archway of trust. – Song of Songs 4:8 The Passion Translation
Wow. Where to begin. It’s been almost two years since I have posted a blog. I am not even sure if I remember how to do it (guess we will find out in a few minutes 🙂
The Lord had me lay down my writing for a season. He had me lay down A LOT of things over the last two years. I had to lay them down as I entered into an intense season of pruning, cleansing, and healing.
To be honest, laying down my writing wasn’t too difficult for me. I have laid it down many times and in many ways over the years. I have nicely and obediently laid it down. I have thrown it down. I have thrown it down and stomped on it in hopes it would go away. I have thrown it down and ran the other way as fast as I could from it (which is funny because I am the slowest runner EVER). Laying it down, yeah, not a problem…
You know what is a problem? Hearing the Lord tell me to pick it back up.
I was at church one night in praise and worship. We were singing Lay it all Down . I was minding my own business pouring out my praise to God when suddenly I heard Him say “Do you know what’s harder than laying it all down?”
First of all, for those of you who are asking “What do you mean you heard God speak to you? How does God speak to you?” Let me simply say YES. He speaks to me. He also speaks to YOU. You just may not realize it yet. The Word says in John 10:27 My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. Wow. What a beautiful promise. I could spend a day just unpacking that. And we will at some point. Right now I just want you to understand that the Living God speaks to YOU! (ps- this “speaking” is not generally audible but at times it is SO strong and so REAL that it almost seems as though it is)
I have learned that when God asks me a question, He already knows the answer (duh), so I simply responded with “No, what?” “Picking it back up again”, I heard Him whisper.
Well that pretty much halted worship for me as my mind started racing. “Pick what back up?” I knew immediately that He was referring to my writing but I confess I was kind of playing dumb because I was not ready to “go there”.
I was not ready for the heartache. I was not ready for another dead end. I was not ready for the frustration. I was not ready for my hope to be deferred once again.
That moment lead to the final phase of pruning, cleansing, and healing. The moment where I had to decide if I truly trusted the Lord. Did I trust the Promises He has spoken to me over the years? Did I trust the gifts He has placed within me? Did I trust Him when He said I am ready? Did I, could I, truly trust Him with my heart?
I would love to say my immediate answer was “YES!” to all of those questions, but it wasn’t. He told me to pick it back up about three months ago. The Lord and I had to work (and burn) a few more things (lies) out before I could walk with Him through the archway of trust.
So here I am. This is my first official step in picking it back up AGAIN. I am not sure what it looks like, though I am sure it will look different, as I am different. I am forever changed. Thank you Jesus!
So you may be saying “Good for you, Jen. I am glad to see you writing again.” Well before you start celebrating on my behalf and cheering me on, let me assure you of this: HE IS ALSO TELLING YOU TO PICK IT BACK UP! Whatever “it” is. It’s time to pick it back up! It’s time for the Church, the Bride of Christ, to do what she was created to do. It’s time for each and every one of us to “pick it back up” and run our race so we accomplish the good work He planned for each and every one of us.
It is time to enter the archway of trust.
Heavenly Father, I thank you for being a good, good Father. I thank you for your fierce love for us. I thank you that your Promises are YES! and Amen! I thank you for each and every person that will come across this Word. I pray Lord that they would each hear your voice as you encourage them to “pick it back up”. I break off all fear that would rise up in the hearts of those that want to move forward in their call but are afraid because of past hurts, pain, failures, dead ends, and any other thing that has come against them in the past. I thank you for clarity of vision and strength of spirit for your sons and daughters. I thank you that you speak to them and root out and expose any lies that are hindering them. I thank you for your healing that will leave each and everyone of us ready to enter into the plans and purposes you have for us through the archway of trust. In Jesus’ most holy and mighty name, Amen.
Picking it back up,