Selfish Faith

I was supposed to have a friend over first thing in the morning last Friday to go paddle boarding. I had just recently reconnected with this friend after not seeing each her for almost two years. She had come over a few days earlier and we had such a good time we decided we needed to get together one more time before I head out of town.

When I say we had a good time, I mean we had a good time talking. The paddle board portion of our get together was fun- sort of. I let her use Faith since she had only been paddle boarding once before, and I borrowed one of the neighbors paddle boards. Now the neighbors have a board similar to mine, but they also have two of the heavy plastic type paddle boards. They are better for family use as they can’t break and crack as easily as the fiberglass boards.

I figured I would be fine on the plastic board seeing how I am now such an avid boarder (it has been like 3 weeks since I first started after all :). We headed out on the lake and I tried to warn my friend that it was windier than it looked and we needed to be careful or else we would find ourselves across the lake. She then decided she wanted to rest and lay down on the board for awhile. I couldn’t really lay down on the board I was using. I found myself mentioning multiple times that we were drifting across the lake but she didn’t seem concerned so I finally decided to let it go.

Sure enough she suddenly sat up and said “Oh my gosh! We have completely drifted across the lake!” like it was a total shock or something. I simply responded “Yep”, though that was not exactly what I was thinking :).

And so it began. The paddle home. And by paddle I mean frantically paddling to make any progress, not to mention keeping the board facing in the right direction (I later found out that the board I was using has a bent fin that points the wrong way…). I finally got some momentum and felt okay. My friend however was a different story. She kept blowing back and despite me telling her not to do the very thing she was doing she insisted on doing things her way (probably why we get along so well:). I could tell she was starting to panic and would not make it on her own out of the windiest part. My only option was to turn back around and help her get going.

I helped her get going and then she was off and racing across the lake. I on the other hand was having a harder time now than I did the first time. I kept looking to my left at a house on the shore and it seemed as though I was in the same spot forever. The best part was the fact that the board I was on was about 2 inches under water. I was on my knees paddling at this point and I started to worry that my neighbors board maybe had a crack and was slowly sinking to the bottom of the lake.

My friend on the other hand was cruising right along making her way back home. Now I am glad she was safe on my board, but at that moment I really wanted my board. I was done sharing Faith.

As Friday drew near I started dreading Friday morning for multiple reasons. I am going to just be honest with you even though I know I am going to sound like a big jerk. First of all, I was tired. I had another busy week and I felt like I just didn’t have the energy to entertain anyone. Mainly however, I kept looking at the weather and it showed that Friday morning was going to be a perfect morning for a ride. I didn’t want to ride a heavy red plastic board. I wanted to ride Faith.

I was driving home when I was having these thoughts of wanting to cancel and as soon as I realized that the main reason I wanted to cancel was because I wanted to use MY board I heard that still small voice whisper “It isn’t always easy sharing your faith”. Now it says in the Psalm 94:11 that the Lord knows peoples thoughts and I believe it because my first thought was “I want to use my own board” and the second thought was the one about sharing my faith.

I smiled because I knew the Lord was teaching me something. It’s true. It’s not always easy sharing your faith. Sometimes it’s scary because we don’t want to be rejected, or offensive, or sound downright nuts. It’s not always convenient either. Sharing your faith takes time. You need to invest time into someone and let them know that they are loved and that you are not just trying to offer them some quick fix, but a real relationship with a real person. And sometimes, just like with my friend, you need to go back and share your faith over and over again with someone who’s life keeps blowing them off course.

No, sharing your faith isn’t easy, or convenient, but it was never meant to be. It is however what we are called to do. I find that so often I am pretty selfish with my Jesus, just like how I was feeling about my paddle board. I want it all to myself and I don’t have time for others.

About fifteen minutes later my friend text me and said she wasn’t feeling well and that she may not make it over in the morning. After my revelation on faith, I was truly disappointed. I wanted to be generous. I wanted to see her. I know she is struggling with some things and I wanted to encourage her. If I had received that text earlier in the day I would have been happy, but now I was bummed.

My friend didn’t end up coming over. I did however go paddle boarding with the neighbor girl. We have wanted to go together since I got my board but it’s never worked out. We were out for almost two hours, and guess what- I got to share my faith with her. Not my board, but my real faith. She loves the Lord but she had some questions and it was such a blessing to be able to speak with her and share my faith with her. I smile at how God orchestrates these things.

Girls, God is good and He is faithful. I know you know that, but I bet you know someone that doesn’t know that. I encourage you to step out of your comfort level and allow yourself to be inconvenienced so that you may share your faith. I promise you it will bless you as much as the person you share it with. You don’t need to worry about the outcome. Let God do that. The Word tells us we need to share our faith, it doesn’t say “and if you don’t save them than shame on you!”

I would love to be encourage by your bold faith!If you have a story to share about sharing your faith, or having someone share theirs with you, please enter in a comment or fill out the contact page.

Worship Christ as Lord of your life. And if someone asks about your Christian hope, always be ready to explain it. 1 Peter 3:15 NLT

Love, Grace, and a Faith Sharing Day to You All,

Jen

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